I haven’t written for two weeks. Not because I had nothing to say, but because I was waiting.
I wanted to write about my interview with a web design agency. Then, slowly, I stopped seeing it as a clear success. And I’m superstitious.
So I waited. Just like I’m still waiting for the head of the agency to text me back. It’s been ten days. Sometimes I lose momentum, then I stop and remind myself that this is the job I’ve dreamed about for years. I can wait. I can prove that I know what I’m doing.
This is the point. During the interview he said: "Ok, it’s clear you know your stuff. But I only sell WordPress to clients. You need to learn it. Start with this plugin, it’s solid."
After three years of studying, I finally got real feedback. Direct. Concrete. On X, real feedback is rare. The niche is full of skilled people, but no one bothers explaining how the world actually works. That’s the naked truth. Nice connections, sure. But a mentor? You find them in real life.
The "Fallout" Experience So fine. I switch to WordPress. Cool? The first impact was brutal. I felt like a survivor inside Fallout. I was coming from Framer and Webflow, which are masterpieces of site builders, and suddenly I was dealing with their grandfather. Everything feels outdated. Animations are a nightmare. If you want anything decent, you need code. AI doesn’t help, it often makes things worse.
The Tactic But there’s no alternative. I have to learn it. I have to send him a site and show that I actually started.
Plugin bought. Not cheap. Template, header, footer. Now I’m building the content. Time passes and he still doesn’t write. He was supposed to add me to their workspace so I wouldn’t pay for the plugin, but whatever. I wanted to start immediately. (And there are sixty days for a no-questions-asked refund).
The Dilemma So yes. Maybe it’s true that the wait itself is part of the pleasure. Or maybe it’s just the phase where you grit your teeth and keep going while no one replies.
In the meantime, I also sent out other applications. More “normal” ones. Generic IT roles, helpdesk, junior positions picked almost at random. Fixed hours, 9 to 6. Apparent safety.
My girlfriend is helping me think straight. She says I’m looking in the wrong direction. That if this is really what I want, the work with the agency, then I should focus on that. Not settle. Not spread myself too thin. Follow what I actually want, even if it’s uncertain.
I do the only thing I can control. I study. I wait. I build.
And we’ll see who’s right.